Where life has gone

I can't believe how many.... Years it's been.

Life with a new born... And teens wasn't conducive for my previously journaling life.

It's the end of March. For us that means living at Lagoon for the next 7 months. Woo hoo!!! My kids enjoy it... But not like I do. And our fiesty 2 year old is hot on my heels. She loves it there. But unlike others, she's been broken in YOUNG. Elizabeth is grateful for the fine months it's closed. Elysia, being the only child of mine to ride EVERYTHING, likes it almost as much as I do... It helps that her friends go. AnyA is very much middle of the road. Jacob rides ALMOST everything but still gets anxious.  And Bella could benefit from some Valium.😉

This year starts off a little different. I'm pregnant, but a miscarriage is being predicted by the Dr. So, time will tell if I'm riding or watching this season.

That's us in a nut shell. This is my 2nd pregnancy since Christmas. And we're praying that this one ends successfully this fall.... Because we are ready for big kid life .❤️

MY Country. MY home

“Your country is like your house; you expect visitors who come to your house to respect you and respect your rules, not the opposite. Visitors must appreciate your kindness and your generosity for receiving them into your home and not impose their own rules on you. This is your house, you own it, so you have the obligation to protect it and defend it.

“If the visitor doesn’t like your rules, all he has to do is to leave. Nobody obliged him to visit you, and nobody will prevent him from leaving. As he came to your house by his own choice, he can leave your house freely or by force, if required.”

PERFECTLY said!

Don't follow the rules?  NOT Welcome!

Happy Veterans Day 2015

Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand
Between their loved home and the war’s desolation!
Blest with victory and peace, may the heav’n rescued land
Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.
Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,
And this be our motto: “In God is our trust.”
And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave
O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

The ongoing effort to shine: Habits of Happiness Day One

I purchased this book this weekend.  And tonight, we began reading it as a Family.

We will be learning about 6 or 7 of these habits over the next couple of weeks.

Tonight, we began learning about Habit # 1:  Do not focus on your weaknesses.

Instead, focus on your strengths.

Birthday Delivery (s)

This year,  for the first time in a few years, David picked out and planned to surprise me with a series of packages delivered to our home.

First,

A New Orleans Saints sleeved blanket. 

Followed by 

New Orleans Saints Beer glasses (which I've come to LOVE for entertaining)

Then

A New Orleans Saints straw dispenser already stocked with gold straws.

Finally,  

Cherry Lime and Blood Orange Italian Soda flavoring. :-D

My life changed today

I went to the Jordan River Temple today.  I've been going to various Temples for one reason or another my whole life. I've been doing Baptisms for the Dead since I was 12.  And have been able to do the "Full Service" work called a "Session" for almost 12 years now.

Deborah and Mark watched Jacob and Bella Thurs, yesterday and today for me.  And my mom watched my other Girls for the same amount of time.

So Thursday, I was able to go with my ward plus Becca Johnson, Rebecca and Bryon Carpenter.

Today, I was able to go with the Kropfs.... SERIOUSLY my VERY favorite people EVER!!!

And although EVERYTHING was exactly what I've seen and heard a thousand times, it was different.

***I*** was different. And my Soul was touched. And I understood on the deepest level who I am, why I am here, and who God is to me.

I can't help but wonder how different my life would have been if I had felt and understood the way I finally did today.

But, I KNOW God understands that I just. wasn't. ready.

I want to be better.  I want to be cleaner.  I want to be GOOD.  REALLY REALLY GOOD.

Because once.. a LONG time ago, My Older Brother, and Savior, Jesus Christ said, "It's ok. I'll fix it because I love you." <3 p="">

July 17th 2015

THE DAY OUR LIVES CHANGED FOREVER!

Let's start with the 16th.  I was spotting.  I've NEVER done that before during a pregnancy.  I felt like I was going to start my period.  I just wanted to curl up in bed. So I did.  I only had Elysia and Bella that night, so I pulled them into bed with me, rented a movie on demand and went to sleep. The morning of the 17th, I woke up and called David.  I told him I was spotting and he told me to call the DR as soon as they opened.  Which, I did.  They told me to come in at my earliest convenience.  

I got the girls up and we went and got David from the airport.  Then they dropped me off at the DR.  He told me there probably wasn't anything to worry about.  That a pocket of blood sometimes forms called a Subchorionic Hemorrhage. But that it's usually minimal and nothing threatening. He did a vaginal ultrasound and found that the hemorrhage had formed a clot that had separated the placenta from my uterus and cut of all nourishment to the baby. There was no longer a heart beat and not blood flow to the placenta or baby.

He offered to operate to remove the baby, or to give me medicine to help it get done faster.  I was holding on to some hope that it was a fluke and would be ok and told him I'd let it happen on it's own.

About 1 am on the 18th, I passed a mass about the size of my fist, and it was over.

We were heart broken.  David even had a rough time with it.  But it is what it is.  Baby Joey had a heart beat.  And we love him.  But The Lord knows what he's doing.

In the mean time, after the Dr, we met Jake and Tiffany over at their house, so we could go sign the papers to make it OUR house.

3900 sq ft. 1/2 acre of land.  All ours!!!