Dear Candace

You really bombed today with Bella. On the upside, you DID a lot right. However the one or two "wrongs" could have cost you your Baby! PLEASE learn your lesson and be more vigilant!!!! You're SO miraculously blessed tonight.

PS - Good job not being excessive in your reactions to those who cannot understand English or "Keep your hands to yourself!" You kept it short and to the point.... then walked away. Now BREATHE!

Dear Mr "Hero"

Thank you to you and all of the others with you who had a part in saving my Baby!!!! I am so gratful you were there. Forgive me for the fact that you Heroism doesn't fully excuse the fact that you don't speak English. People like you frustrate me so much. How could I ask you the questions I needed to in order to know the exact condition of things. But then, you DID make sure my Baby is safe in my love tonight. Thank you for that! Please learn english and become someone who can function successfully in this country you and your "Compadres" are taking over.

Dear Bella

I failed you in multiple ways today. And for that, I am so sorry! I SWEAR to do better. THANK YOU for staying with me! I hope you're ok. Xoxoxo!!!! ♥

Dear David

OMG!!!! Bella could have been killed tonight. And THEN some Woman had to further put her in danger by not having the decency to keep her hands to herself. I really miss you tonight, and you seemed WAY more interested in the Game :(

Overwhelmed... AGAIN!

So many thoughts and emotions. Heads up, the only way I know how to express them is to write "Letters" defining each situation. Here goes.

We are Young

Give me a second I
I need to get my story straight
My friends are in the bathroom
Getting higher than the Empire State
My lover he's waiting for me
Just across the bar
My seats been taken by some sunglasses
Asking 'bout a scar
And I know I gave it to you months ago
I know you're trying to forget
But between the drinks and subtle things
The holes in my apologies
You know I'm trying hard to take it back
So if by the time the bar closes
And you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Now I know that I'm not
All that you got
I guess that I
I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart
But our friends are back
So let's raise a cup
Cause I found someone to carry me home

Tonight
We are young
So let's the set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight
Carry me home tonight
Just carry me home tonight

The world is on my side
I have no reason to run
So will someone come and carry me home tonight
The angels never arrived
But I can hear the choir
So will someone come and carry me home

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

Tonight
We are young
So let's set the world on fire
We can burn brighter
Than the sun

So if by the time the bar closes
And you feel like falling down
I'll carry you home tonight


************************************************

I've been playing this song in my head, singing it out loud around the house, and thinking over the lyrics.

And it made me realize just how much age is a state of mind. Tonight we ARE young. We can STILL set the world on fire.

I plan to be setting the world on fire for at LEAST 4 more decades, just like my Grandma.

What I need right now

David gave me a blessing before he left for Rock Springs tonight.

I was blessed to be able to give My Children my very best. And have the resources to care for them. That help is all around me.

I am so happy to feel that this new year is a new life for us. This new home is full of new hope!