Writers Block and Karma

I have really had a hard time getting on here to post.  The past 4 months or so have been a WHIRLWIND!!!

We moved into our house :D

The Girls started School. :D

We LOVE our life.

I started getting whiny a couple of weeks ago about the way David's Family behaves.  And Rachel pointed out to me that Karma is a Bitch.  And I need to just remember that Karma will step in at some point.

That is something I just need to hold on to.

SO, I refuse to let myself be weaker than I am and stoop to the level where I am taking more than I give.  Because someday, someone will try to take the liberty of whining about how hard they have it (when they stood by and let me handle EVERYTHING on my own) and I will be able to look at the situation with a clear conscience, and not do a damn thing.

Awful to take that view on it, maybe.

But here's the thing.

I believe in helping others.

I believe in treating them how I want them to treat me.

But, I believe that it's ok to try my best to help.  To be willing and available to help.  And when they turn my help down over and over, and refuse to return the courtesy, to do MY best and then step back and allow them to have to do their best when it's their turn.

This isn't meant as saying "I love my life. Now deal with yours."

This is me saying,  "I.Love. My. Life."  And "I will give 100% when it's my turn." And "If you choose NOT to give that same 100% when it's your turn, YOU can deal with the consequences."

Anyway.  I will always give my best.  Because Karma and God are real, and I want to be on Their good side ;-)  Because, I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

David

I LOVE My Husband.  I came across a message from him to someone that said "One simple truth in Life that you and many other people seem to not understand is that "YOU ALWAYS HAVE TIME AND MONEY FOR WHAT IS IMPORTANT TO YOU!"

We have a High enough Self Esteem and aren't so Stupid to think that because someone says "No" it's a personal attack"

I L O V E this statement. I love that he said the words "WE have a high enough self esteem..."

I have had a few conversations with him lately where he has said things that put me to shame.

I loved who he was before he left on his mission at 20. I loved who he was when we were dating and engaged. I loved who he was at points in our marriage. I loved who he was when we were divorced. I loved who he was at points in our marriage since then. But NONE of that compares to how much I L O V E who he is NOW!!!!

Our God will never us forsake

This Quote: "The Quest stands upon the edge of a knife. Stray but a little, and it will fail, to the ruin of all. Yet hope remains

while the Company is true. " Is how I feel about the current task, trial, possible blessing that is the circumstance we are currently in this summer.

I fear that I do not have the strength or the resources in my sight to pull off this move.

On top of that we need to have an extra $2100 before we can move. That's above and beyond normal living  expenses.

And I have had Blessing after Blessing that point to it all working out.  And theoretically, it should.  We had the extra $2000 for the van when we needed it. And I feel that we NEED this.  So I find comfort in the words to the song "Come, Come Ye Saints." 

1. Come, come, ye Saints, no toil nor labor fear;
   But with joy wend your way.
   Though hard to you this journey may appear,
   Grace shall be as your day.
   'Tis better far for us to strive
   Our useless cares from us to drive;
   Do this, and joy your hearts will swell--
   All is well! All is well!
   
   
2. Why should we mourn or think our lot is hard?
   'Tis not so; all is right.
   Why should we think to earn a great reward
   If we now shun the fight?
   Gird up your loins; fresh courage take.
   Our God will never us forsake;
   And soon we'll have this tale to tell--
   All is well! All is well!
   
   
3. We'll find the place which God for us prepared,
   Far away in the West,
   Where none shall come to hurt or make afraid;
   There the Saints will be blessed.
   We'll make the air with music ring,
   Shout praises to our God and King;
   Above the rest these words we'll tell--
   All is well! All is well!
   
   
   I am strong.  I have proven this.  I KNOW God is mindful of us.  I know we are doing a good job.  I know we have his support.
   
   
   President Hinckley, our Prophet until his death a few years ago said:
   
   

   

   And I feel confident that I am good at having faith and moving forward with a Happy Spirit. So, Here goes ;-)

Independence Day... God Bless the USA

If Tomorrow all the things were gone, I'd worked for all my life.  And I had to start again, with just My Children and My Wife....

This is for you Bobby.  I will NEVER forget you singing this at Grandma's house... I believe on the 4th of July.  And I think we were waiting to go watch fireworks.

And I think we were BFF's in the making.  And I lost track of you.   :(

And after all these years, I can't think of a DAMN thing I can do about it.

But I love you. And I'm sorry. And if there is any salvation, I will try to make it right.

And in light of your Dad's passing, your upcoming Birthday, and it almost being the 4th of July, I think this song fits best now:

Let freedom ring, let the white dove sing
Let the whole world know that today 
Is a day of reckoning.
Let the weak be strong,let the right be wrong
Roll the stone away, let the guilty pay
It's Independence Day.

God Bless the USA!!!!  And all of the people like you and your Dad ♥♥♥

Tough

I have learned through MUCH trial and error, that the times when I try to put limits on what I can put up with, is when some of the most FIERCE trials come.

And I FIRMLY believe that it's The Lord's way of showing me that I am stronger than I think.

It's become so consistent, that one day when David was in town last, I shared this with him.... and was SHOCKED when he put his arms around me and said "It's ok, you can be weak for once."  And I just cried while he held me.

But this past month, I have had things THROWN at me (figuratively, of course ;-) ) and as I push through, I have watched as weaker people HAVE crumbled.  And I don't say this to gloat.  I boast only of My God, and what HE has shown me!!!!  He has shown me just how much I CAN do! ♥

.... In other news, David will be home in 10 days :D

Remember

I remember you. Do you remember me?  Do you remember Grandma had that one specific tree?

We had to be just 3 or 4.  You were right there... just next door.

I think there's an idea behind what is, but what?  You won't get close enough to tell.

It took me all these years to see, I left you there in Hell.

So now, it doesn't matter who or where I am.  You have left, gone away, and become a foreign Man.

Do you remember that one time you called me on the phone?

Do you remember that one time we had that crash right near your home?

I walked away both times.  I Don't know what you did then.

And now I'm trying to sort it out.... unless all the sorting's done.

Death of a Marine

My Uncle Guy.... My Mom's Twin