Movies we've seen lately: "Valentine's Day." I liked this one. "Cop Out." Good story, I like Bruce Willis, but I HATE the language. "Planet 51." A new "Fav" at our place.
Products we've tried: "Off" brand Insect Repellent Fan. SUCKED! "Passion Parties" Nibblers (Watermelon). Love it! Best chap stick EVER.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
There are NO words.
I have continued reading the book "The Cleansing of America." I can't stress this ENOUGH: IT IS A MUST READ!!!!!!
It is NOT "Light Reading" but it is IMPORTANT reading.
And Today has been HELL on earth.
On our way home from Salt Lake last week, the cork must have come out of the bottle. It took us 6 hours to get home. David was different than he has been in a long time. And I REFUSE to go back to that way of existence. And NO ONE who has not been through it can know just how deep the feelings run!
We fought and then stopped the car and got out for a break, and then repeated the scenario several times.
Today he REFUSED to go to church. Refused to help get the Children ready, and as I am DASHING out the door (because for ONCE rather than fight with him, I was getting MYSELF to church ( I was cutting it too close to get the 4 children ready by myself) He announced that I was NOT leaving the Children. So, we showed up JUST in time for the sacrament with Jacob in Pajamas, Abby shoeless, and NO One's hair done. (YES the sacrament was THAT important to me).
And I struggled and struggled to handle my emotions, and my Children by myself. And then Ivy took the time to help with Jacob. And Teresa took the time to talk with me and help with Elysia. And then Ivy took MORE time to help with Abby. And the Bishop sat with me for at LEAST an hour and a half while I went back and forth in my mind on where my relationship with David stood.
And it wasn't caused by David refusing to go to church or help out. It was caused by what that symbolized.
You see, all of that Heaven and Hell stuff that you read about in the Scriptures. That Prophets have spoken of for CENTURIES and MILENA, It is the stuff our lives are made of.
We really actually have it in our FACES. And when we choose things that are not "Good" things EXPLODE. And when we choose things that ARE "Good" other things explode.
And Elizabeth and Elysia are sooooo AWESOME. And Jacob and Abby are soooo SPECIAL!
Someday my ramblings will make sense. But Bella from Twilight said it well when she said: "Alice, is it possible that everything's true? The fairy tales and horror stories? Is it possible that there isn't anything sane and normal at all?..."
And don't go freaking out. I'm quite sane. And quite safe. I just know things that MANY people don't know, let alone understand... though we've been told about them since the beginning of the world.
It is NOT "Light Reading" but it is IMPORTANT reading.
And Today has been HELL on earth.
On our way home from Salt Lake last week, the cork must have come out of the bottle. It took us 6 hours to get home. David was different than he has been in a long time. And I REFUSE to go back to that way of existence. And NO ONE who has not been through it can know just how deep the feelings run!
We fought and then stopped the car and got out for a break, and then repeated the scenario several times.
Today he REFUSED to go to church. Refused to help get the Children ready, and as I am DASHING out the door (because for ONCE rather than fight with him, I was getting MYSELF to church ( I was cutting it too close to get the 4 children ready by myself) He announced that I was NOT leaving the Children. So, we showed up JUST in time for the sacrament with Jacob in Pajamas, Abby shoeless, and NO One's hair done. (YES the sacrament was THAT important to me).
And I struggled and struggled to handle my emotions, and my Children by myself. And then Ivy took the time to help with Jacob. And Teresa took the time to talk with me and help with Elysia. And then Ivy took MORE time to help with Abby. And the Bishop sat with me for at LEAST an hour and a half while I went back and forth in my mind on where my relationship with David stood.
And it wasn't caused by David refusing to go to church or help out. It was caused by what that symbolized.
You see, all of that Heaven and Hell stuff that you read about in the Scriptures. That Prophets have spoken of for CENTURIES and MILENA, It is the stuff our lives are made of.
We really actually have it in our FACES. And when we choose things that are not "Good" things EXPLODE. And when we choose things that ARE "Good" other things explode.
And Elizabeth and Elysia are sooooo AWESOME. And Jacob and Abby are soooo SPECIAL!
Someday my ramblings will make sense. But Bella from Twilight said it well when she said: "Alice, is it possible that everything's true? The fairy tales and horror stories? Is it possible that there isn't anything sane and normal at all?..."
And don't go freaking out. I'm quite sane. And quite safe. I just know things that MANY people don't know, let alone understand... though we've been told about them since the beginning of the world.
Friday, July 9, 2010
Who am I?
"Who am I, where am I going?
Here I sit all alone not knowing why.
Brace me up, I'm so discouraged.
Help, I think I'm gonna die.
How it hurts to be a no one
How I wish I was someone really loved.
Brace me up, I'm such a failure.
Heaven, help me, up above.
Isn't there a someone with a hand to spare?
Who can share what they have for my hunger?
isn't there a someone who will take me as I am
And brace me up, not put me down.
Make me feel like I'm as good as another!
Doubts and fears keep comin' faster,
Boy I'm headed for disaster, that's for sure.
Brace me up, I'm going under.
Help, somebody, find a cure."
I struggle daily with knowing that I am on this earth to help people and yet so many seem to feel that the help I have to offer is not good enough. The song above is not how I feel. But I read blog after blog, and status after status from people who DO feel this way. And I want to tell them that they aren't as alone as they think they are. But I get incredibly tired of the rejection that follows such an attempt.
I have just learned.... especially over the years that I have been a Mom, that the more I reach out, and share what I have with others, the more full of the qualities that make me a Good Mom I am.
I LOVE my Children so very much. And as corny as this sounds, it's almost as though the more I branch out, the more filled with a luminescence I am. My name means "Full of Light." And I truly believe part of my potential is to manifest that quality. And the more I share, the closer I get. And it benefits My Family in so many ways.
I guess that sums it up. Since it is now almost 2 am, I had better leave it at that.
Speaking of which, I am so grateful to not have to be anywhere most days of the week. I enjoy laid back :-)
Here I sit all alone not knowing why.
Brace me up, I'm so discouraged.
Help, I think I'm gonna die.
How it hurts to be a no one
How I wish I was someone really loved.
Brace me up, I'm such a failure.
Heaven, help me, up above.
Isn't there a someone with a hand to spare?
Who can share what they have for my hunger?
isn't there a someone who will take me as I am
And brace me up, not put me down.
Make me feel like I'm as good as another!
Doubts and fears keep comin' faster,
Boy I'm headed for disaster, that's for sure.
Brace me up, I'm going under.
Help, somebody, find a cure."
I struggle daily with knowing that I am on this earth to help people and yet so many seem to feel that the help I have to offer is not good enough. The song above is not how I feel. But I read blog after blog, and status after status from people who DO feel this way. And I want to tell them that they aren't as alone as they think they are. But I get incredibly tired of the rejection that follows such an attempt.
I have just learned.... especially over the years that I have been a Mom, that the more I reach out, and share what I have with others, the more full of the qualities that make me a Good Mom I am.
I LOVE my Children so very much. And as corny as this sounds, it's almost as though the more I branch out, the more filled with a luminescence I am. My name means "Full of Light." And I truly believe part of my potential is to manifest that quality. And the more I share, the closer I get. And it benefits My Family in so many ways.
I guess that sums it up. Since it is now almost 2 am, I had better leave it at that.
Speaking of which, I am so grateful to not have to be anywhere most days of the week. I enjoy laid back :-)
Thursday, July 8, 2010
The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner
The Short Second Life of Bree Tanner: An Eclipse Novella by Stephenie MeyerIt was satisfactory. A Blatant tragedy, which is sad. But it added to Eclipse and gave new insight.
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Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Misconstrued
i think people misinterpret my out going nature. I'm not clingy, not needy. I just have this idea that the journey is always better when you do it with a friend, or 2, or 5! :-) I just always enjoy things more when I have people.... good friends.... to enjoy it with.
So if I am CONSTANTLY inviting you to do things, it's not because I am codependent. It's because it's so much better when you're there.
You would think it would help people feel good. That's what it's meant to do. I HATE feeling left out. Why would I want someone else to feel that way? SO many people complain about feeling lonely, left out, like nobody likes them. Well, I'm starting to firmly believe it's their own damn fault! When someone tries to be your friend, and include you, and you refuse because they're not the person you WANT to invite you, include you, etc, STOP COMPLAINING about being alone!
So if I am CONSTANTLY inviting you to do things, it's not because I am codependent. It's because it's so much better when you're there.
You would think it would help people feel good. That's what it's meant to do. I HATE feeling left out. Why would I want someone else to feel that way? SO many people complain about feeling lonely, left out, like nobody likes them. Well, I'm starting to firmly believe it's their own damn fault! When someone tries to be your friend, and include you, and you refuse because they're not the person you WANT to invite you, include you, etc, STOP COMPLAINING about being alone!
Changes
I have started reading the book by W Cleon Skousen called The Cleansing of America.
Five pages is enough to put the "Fear of God" into a person. SERIOUSLY! Because it's intense, straight to the point, and HONEST.
And it's made me think about where I am at on the scale between "good and bad."
And it is clear that some things need to change.
And so, I will be working VERY hard to clean up the areas in my life that need some tweaking and improving. Because BELIEVE me when I say, I do NOT want to be on the wrong side when these events take place.
Five pages is enough to put the "Fear of God" into a person. SERIOUSLY! Because it's intense, straight to the point, and HONEST.
And it's made me think about where I am at on the scale between "good and bad."
And it is clear that some things need to change.
And so, I will be working VERY hard to clean up the areas in my life that need some tweaking and improving. Because BELIEVE me when I say, I do NOT want to be on the wrong side when these events take place.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Sizzling Sixteen
Sizzling Sixteen by Janet EvanovichGood book.... I love this series. It was left open for a 17th book, but there is no mention of one yet. Hopefully!
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