A Trip to The Temple = Buyers Remorse!

"And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and ¾ percent guaranteed) Kid, you'll move mountains.” -- Dr. Seuss

I went to a Slumber Party last night. And I spent WAY more than I planned to.

Then I went to The Temple today.

And now I have Buyers Remorse.

And it has NOTHING to do with the items I was buying. It's that I struggle to pay what I need to, when it stops me from buying what I want.

And if it's between tithing and fun... Well, being 100% honest, I can find a MILLION ways to justify the fun.

"I'll pay tithing with the next check."

But I have decided that I don't want to wait 2 more weeks for the blessings I have been taught come with paying tithing. I need them now.

SO, since I am DETERMINED to succeed at doing things "right", I am going to suck it up, and cut back my SP purchase by 2/3rds.

SOME of my justifications are really valid. Everything I am getting (after I cut back) is on "special". And a couple of the items will be Christmas presents.

But I REALLY don't need to spend an extra $100 on "That would be nice" items. ESPECIALLY when it comes out of my tithing.

*Just to make sure I am clear: My stand on the items Slumber Parties and other related businesses sell, is that they are not for EVERYONE... But if you like them, they can be very enhancing to your personal life, and your romantic life. Therefore, I like to budget to pamper myself, and the One I Love, with some of their products.*

So, I am ending this with a new resolve to succeed at making things right.

Temples

$50 Lesson

Noise...

I have certain "Talents". One of them is the ability to hear "things" rather than see or feel them. It's sometimes referred to as being Clair-audience. Clair-audience means ‘clear-hearing’. It is the ability to ‘hear’ Spirit. Actually, that USED to be a Talent of mine. It's one I struggle with lately. Mainly because noise is EVERYWHERE. I it makes it hard to "Hear."

These days I am more Clair-voyant than Clair-audience. You know how they say that when you loose one sense, a different sense usually becomes heightened. Well... Too much noise all around. I DO have the ability to see things as they really are a LOT of the time.

But if you ever happen to notice that excess noise drives me nuts, this is why.

It's All Coming Back to Me....

Almost 2 years ago, , and the few following it, started what I have referred to as The Blog War. It was explosive! It left me less a few "Friends". Thank GOD for trials! Thank GOD that things like that happen and if we use them right, make us better, stronger, and get us to places that are so much better than what we imagined then.

I look forward to the day I meet My Lord. I know that a sense of release will over take me. I know I will fall into His arms and sob! I know I will know infinite Joy at that moment. I just need to remember that daily when little temptations come my way.... in that moment, I want to be free of shame and regret. I make a commitment anew to repent and live a purer life!

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Anyway, the reason for this post is NOT that. Although I find it to be important as a Preface.


My reason for this post is that I have been fortunate to have a 2nd chance at one of those lost Friendships. And I am grateful.

And it made me reflect to this time almost 2 years ago.

And I realized that when Heidi posted her Blog post titled "I Would Do Anything For Love" (she has deleted that section of posts... Very mature of her but still they are gone, so I am NOT 100% SURE that was exactly the title of that post, but I'm sure it had to have been to have gotten me on this particular tirade.), It crossed a line with me. And after reading MY posts, I actually have already said that it got under my skin because it brings back the very first TRULY traumatic time I can recall in my life.

Her post brought back a time frame where I lost My Grandmother, My First Baby, My First Love. It's not that I was a "Hater" by any means. But that I felt that my trauma was someone else's playground.

I don't think she did it on purpose. I do think her following actions were AMAZINGLY insensitive and malicious... especially for someone who has felt that kind of pain. However, I am not posting this to open old wounds. Or to talk about what kind of person she is.

I am posting this because I am revisiting the time almost 2 years ago when my life changed. And looking into integrating people from that time frame back into my life means joining the past with the present.

And as I reflected, I realized that a line was crossed in my head and emotions when that particular song was mentioned. Not because I own it. But because she was in MY PLACE at HIS SIDE, using MY SONG!

It was the fact that I was watching a my life 11 years ago happen all over again. A time when I experienced more pain than up to that point, I had ever experienced in my LIFE. But I was the audience, while my Nemesis was ME! With OUT the pain. With OUT the trauma. What was a HORRIBLE time for me, was a WONDERFUL time for her!

I can write and write and write to try to explain. I just hope anyone reading this gets what I'm trying to say because more words will just make it a rambling mess.

This is all about coming to terms with WHY something SO innocent caused such insanity!

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Just a ♪ to end on, I DO think it was very mature of her to remove that section of posts. I however, will not be taking the gory parts out of my post list because it's a part of my history. And I want it to stay. It would be like removing my arm because it doesn't fit the mold of who I want to be like it used to. Clear as Mud?

Things I've changed, things you should try

Two days ago, we dropped cow's milk like a HOT POTATO. Cold Turkey. GONE!!!!

Instead, we buy Almond, Rice, and Coconut Milk.

Fluoride toothpaste is also on it's way OUT. Which kind of sucks because like shampoo, I have a stock of toothpaste (I like to be prepared ;)

We have started using OnGuard toothpaste(DoTerra). It contains the OnGuard Essential Oil Blend which has a fresh cinnamon smell (cause it contains cinnamon among other things,) is antimicrobial, ingest-able, and does amazing things for your immune system. I use it in laundry, on dishes, as a mouthwash, to mop the floor.... LOVE IT!

Also, I have started having a glass of 2 tblspoons Apple Cider Vinegar, 6 Oz of Almond Milk, and a tblspoon of Honey a couple of times a day. It is weirdly not bad. And Apple Cider Vinegar is supposed to be AMAZING for you!

I need to get some Red Raspberry capsules. It is ALSO good for your body in so many ways!

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