I am in the smack dab couldn't be more involved part of my pregnancy. And it is the HARDEST pregnancy out of 5. I am in so much pain. I have a HORRIBLE infection in my face that will prolly ONLY go away when I have delivered the Baby. And I am already having some serious contractions. All of this with a FULL 5 weeks until it's even SAFE to try delivering. So basically, I will be in labor for 5 weeks.
And EVERYONE seems to have this basic NEED to cause drama. And I won't have it in my life. I WON'T. And I am SICK of people going out of their way to bring it to me.
I have kept to myself, minding my own business, living for just my family of 7. And that seems to add MORE fuel to the fire. Which FASCINATES me! It's like the less fuel I provide, the more people crave it, and bring their own made up crap to throw on the fire.
Well, I have 5 weeks of absolute SUFFERING left... with David in North Dakota for 75% of it before this New ANGEL comes into our home. And I will NOT allow the negativity. It's hard enough to stay positive and keep the Baby's environment calm and free of any projected negative thoughts and feelings. I DON'T need any help making it harder
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Saturday, August 27, 2011
it AMAZES me that even at 8 months pregnant, I have to be the calm, strong one who tip toes around everyone else, while I am constantly in the midst of NON pregnant people throwing tantrums. (but heaven forbid I should have a tantrum or be demanding) And THEN these people expect me to be sensitive to their feelings when THEY'RE pregnant or have some major emotional "thing" in THEIR lives. HAH! Karma can be PAINFUL people!! Muahahahaha!
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
So much to learn from Gethsemane
32And they came to a place which was named Gethsemane: and he saith to his disciples, Sit ye here, while I shall pray.
33And he taketh with him Peter and James and John, and began to be sore amazed, and to be very heavy;
34And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch.
35And he went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him.
36And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.
37And he cometh, and findeth them sleeping, and saith unto Simon, Peter: sleepest thou? couldest not thou watch one hour?
There are obvious things to learn from this section of Scripture. Things that we have been taught all of our lives. But how poignant is this section that we may often over look.
The Lord is Omni Patient. But that does not mean He does not grow sad and weary. As any good Shepherd or Parent. This is the point that I really want to focus on. It's not because he's not perfect. It's because He is perfect because He understands the deepest emotions.
Can you even imagine the depths of despair He may feel when He watches one in His care succumb to mortal weakness. It's not because He doesn't understand that they are not perfect, it's because He often provides the directions and the supplies to NOT succumb. And He says "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden , and I will give you rest . Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." And He stands there with His hand out stretched for eons of time just patiently waiting. And we shrug off the help. And then we fail.
This is not to be depressing. Not to point out that we as mortals SUCK! But as a PARENT this is so helpful to me as I try so desperately to play 2 roles. First, that of one who so desperately needs the reminder that He is there if I take the offered hand. And He has provided the instructions if I will simply give heed. And Second, as the Parent who does just that for my Children only to watch them ignore the warnings and do it their way.
It's hard to be one who puts in all of the work and effort so they don't have to. All they have to do is accept the offer. And they just won't. And it helps me get through to know that HE is perpetually in that position. And it makes it so I want to be sure and NOT be the one to not accept His offering.
The warning is always provided BEFORE the temptation comes: "Tarry ye here, and watch." Because in His wisdom, He KNOWS we're going to encounter the temptation, which in this case was to sleep. So He warns us. And when we do not listen, He reaches out to us. And He can't help but be sad and weary when once again we "couldest not watch one hour." But the next time he will do it all over again. The warning, the offering, the waiting for us to simply accept.
33And he taketh with him Peter and James and John, and began to be sore amazed, and to be very heavy;
34And saith unto them, My soul is exceeding sorrowful unto death: tarry ye here, and watch.
35And he went forward a little, and fell on the ground, and prayed that, if it were possible, the hour might pass from him.
36And he said, Abba, Father, all things are possible unto thee; take away this cup from me: nevertheless not what I will, but what thou wilt.
37And he cometh, and findeth them sleeping, and saith unto Simon, Peter: sleepest thou? couldest not thou watch one hour?
There are obvious things to learn from this section of Scripture. Things that we have been taught all of our lives. But how poignant is this section that we may often over look.
The Lord is Omni Patient. But that does not mean He does not grow sad and weary. As any good Shepherd or Parent. This is the point that I really want to focus on. It's not because he's not perfect. It's because He is perfect because He understands the deepest emotions.
Can you even imagine the depths of despair He may feel when He watches one in His care succumb to mortal weakness. It's not because He doesn't understand that they are not perfect, it's because He often provides the directions and the supplies to NOT succumb. And He says "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden , and I will give you rest . Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light." And He stands there with His hand out stretched for eons of time just patiently waiting. And we shrug off the help. And then we fail.
This is not to be depressing. Not to point out that we as mortals SUCK! But as a PARENT this is so helpful to me as I try so desperately to play 2 roles. First, that of one who so desperately needs the reminder that He is there if I take the offered hand. And He has provided the instructions if I will simply give heed. And Second, as the Parent who does just that for my Children only to watch them ignore the warnings and do it their way.
It's hard to be one who puts in all of the work and effort so they don't have to. All they have to do is accept the offer. And they just won't. And it helps me get through to know that HE is perpetually in that position. And it makes it so I want to be sure and NOT be the one to not accept His offering.
The warning is always provided BEFORE the temptation comes: "Tarry ye here, and watch." Because in His wisdom, He KNOWS we're going to encounter the temptation, which in this case was to sleep. So He warns us. And when we do not listen, He reaches out to us. And He can't help but be sad and weary when once again we "couldest not watch one hour." But the next time he will do it all over again. The warning, the offering, the waiting for us to simply accept.
On the way
I don't usually wish for time to pass quickly. I truly savor every moment and don't wish a single one to pass. To do so would mean my children slipping away even faster. THAT I would NEVER wish.
HOWEVER, all I can really focus on is the BIG October happening. And David just bought me a new addition to my Kitchen Fairie collection.
SO, I thought I'd share a picture of her.
She's posed in the Baby's room to welcome our Autumn Addition. :-D
Monday, August 22, 2011
Thirty Something Weeks
I never intended to breastfeed my children. To be perfectly honest, breastfeeding seemed incredibly gross. Why would I ever want to put a baby to the old “fun bag?” Well, the cost of formula, not to mention the health benefits, convinced me to at least give it a try.
Many women, much like myself, decide to go to a breastfeeding basics class before having a baby. The only problem with these classes is that explaining to someone how to breastfeed a baby is kind of like explaining how to ride a bike. Think of it; what would you say to someone that needed to learn to ride a bike? “Sit on the bike and start peddling!”
Well, get a baby and put it to your boob. Ingenious, right?
I’m not sure why they offer these breastfeeding classes. The only thing my breastfeeding class did was scare the crap out of me. “You want me to put a baby’s mouth WHERE?”
At the very end of my breastfeeding course, the instructor, a lady that seemed to enjoy her pillow that looked exactly like a breast a little too much, decided to show the class a video. A video of women breastfeeding. A video showing the nipples of women that I do not know. Nipples inside babies’ mouths.
I left that class, crying. “It looked like a big, wet Snickers bar!” I sobbed into my husband’s chest. “I. Can’t. Breastfeeeeeed!”
The funniest part of this story is that I ended up exclusively pumping for my first child for seven months and exclusively breastfeeding my second. So, if you’re thinking about it, give it a try.
Yes, it will “hurt” at the beginning as your body gets used to having a baby gnaw on your nipple. Yes, your boobs are going to get really big. And yes, it does get easier as time passes.
Just be prepared for the complete and total stranger manhandling your boobie in the hospital. They don’t tell you about that in breastfeeding class.
6 weeks and 3 Days
Pretty much says it all. The count down is on! The dumb ticker on my main page frustrates me. But ANYWAY! It is what it is! SIX WEEKS, THREE DAYS!!!!!!!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Checklist
WEEEELLLLL, This weekend, David was home. YAY! And I completely organized all 3 bedroom closets, moved Abby into the Older Girls' room, and moved a dresser and the cradle into Jacob's room. Meanwhile David COMPLETELY overhauled our garage! YAY!
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Things I have found to RAVE about that YOU should totally check out!
This is mainly going to be for mothers of children under 3, but it's still totally worth looking into for EVERYONE!
*Passion Parties Romanta Therapy After Shave Protection mist. (best way to get to it without having to see anything you may not want to is go to the site, then click "Shop Online", and go the the tab that says "Romanta Therapy" and scroll down to the product. It's pricey at $15 per bottle plus shipping and handling so you want to watch for deals or buy several bottles at once.
Uses: Sunburn, Diaper rash, New Tattoos, Acne.... Really ANY skin irritation.
It has Antibacterial properties combined with soothing ingredients that provide relief you have to experience to believe could come from this bottle of clear, VERY subtle smelling spray.
*Amazon.com, Amazon Moms "club" for Diapers and Baby Wipes.
Uses: I get a big box of Pampers Cruisers for the same price I pay at Smith's for the store brand and it's delivered to my door with no tax or shipping costs once a month. I also get 2 boxes of Pampers thick care wipes for the same price as the store brand at Wal Mart.... again delivered to my door with NO tax or shipping costs.
*UdderCovers.com Nursing covers. When they have their promotion, you get a $32 nursing cover for $10. They have Gift sets that are $37. With the promotion you pay $15. I've heard GREAT things about the covers. They have the bow at the top so you don't need hands to see your baby. I got one gift set and a 2nd cover for ME, and a 3rd cover as a Baby gift all for $35
* This new Blog My SIL sent me to has AMAZING ideas and ways to do things Cheap or Free! I am doing a Hair Bow Making Station for my Baby Shower from her tutorial.
*Passion Parties Romanta Therapy After Shave Protection mist. (best way to get to it without having to see anything you may not want to is go to the site, then click "Shop Online", and go the the tab that says "Romanta Therapy" and scroll down to the product. It's pricey at $15 per bottle plus shipping and handling so you want to watch for deals or buy several bottles at once.
Uses: Sunburn, Diaper rash, New Tattoos, Acne.... Really ANY skin irritation.
It has Antibacterial properties combined with soothing ingredients that provide relief you have to experience to believe could come from this bottle of clear, VERY subtle smelling spray.
*Amazon.com, Amazon Moms "club" for Diapers and Baby Wipes.
Uses: I get a big box of Pampers Cruisers for the same price I pay at Smith's for the store brand and it's delivered to my door with no tax or shipping costs once a month. I also get 2 boxes of Pampers thick care wipes for the same price as the store brand at Wal Mart.... again delivered to my door with NO tax or shipping costs.
*UdderCovers.com Nursing covers. When they have their promotion, you get a $32 nursing cover for $10. They have Gift sets that are $37. With the promotion you pay $15. I've heard GREAT things about the covers. They have the bow at the top so you don't need hands to see your baby. I got one gift set and a 2nd cover for ME, and a 3rd cover as a Baby gift all for $35
* This new Blog My SIL sent me to has AMAZING ideas and ways to do things Cheap or Free! I am doing a Hair Bow Making Station for my Baby Shower from her tutorial.
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