Gratitude: Day 6 and 7

Since I've been away, I am 2 days behind which is good because that means I can post 2 things at once. I am Grateful for my AMAZING MOM, and David's WONDERFUL PARENTS! I am so blessed to have them!!!! WE are sooo blessed to have them!

A Little Help from my Friends

Can't even believe today. It started fine. We even made it to the park. Of course then the weather got chilly and looked stormy, and it was all down hill from there. But Fortunately, the things that went wrong were only surface.... all though they stung. We got a call saying that the job in Alaska is on hold for the time being. HOWEVER, when they DO interview, David is at the top of the list. BUT that could be June, or it could be February. And while having 2 parents available 24/7 is sure a lot easier than ONE parent, it doesn't do much for our financial plans ;-).

So, then I had a coupon for a free 48 oz carton of ice cream at Smith's that I just HAD to use. And some how, thanks to shallow pockets, I not only lost the COUPON, but $20 (we only had $40) as well. Which SUCKED because we had really been trying to be conservative. Since I went to a movie, I gave up my book (s) that I really want to get. So, that FREE ice cream actually cost us $25.

I come home, and yeah, it sucks ROYALLY that we're stuck possibly even LONGER in this situation, PLUS down $20, BUT David and I are getting along, the kids are doing realitively well, and when I have this kind of luck, I usually end up in jail and that ALWAYS costs us a MIN of $150.... so $20 isn't so bad in relation.

I'm really seeing the glass as half full, but really the only word to describe my thoughts is "SHIT!" ( which I said over and over again as I scoured Smith's for my missing $ and coupon)

And even though I actually apologized UPFRONT for my "abrasive" language, it's MY page, and I wanted to share "Shit!" ;-)

But there always has to be that ONE person, who not only doesn't understand the "pain" but has to make it about THEM. So, one of my Friends from HS, gets offended, and handles it ok, but NOT how the situation NEEDED to be handled. And Ginger hit it RIGHT on the head when she said that the person "...really knows how to pump a girl up when she's down, don't she? Maybe Terrenna should hide your status's if she don't like 'em. :D And I say this with love..." EXACTLY! I needed to be "pumped up" and EVERYONE could either see that and show their support, or see it enough to know NOT to get openly offended. So here I am trying to show Terrenna that I understand, but what she said didn't help any, and she goes one step farther and gets openly offended about offending me.

Meanwhile, I am trying to get in touch with My Mom. Who is not answering her phone or her door even though her car is home. My half full glass was draining REAL fast.

But seriously. Ginger came to the rescue so thoroughly. Because all I really needed was someone to understand. Then Kim. And David was GOLDEN. Then when I DID finally get a hold of My Mom, even she was above and beyond.

And I learned a few valuable lessons.... or rather had them emphasized since I've kind of learned them a bit ago:

1) I have a pretty positive attitude.
2) I am VERY blessed.
3) Education is Key. Terrenna could only be so offended over something so small because she lives in a box.
4) The TRUE show of someone's self esteem is how they treat people when they are hurt. Someone with a low self esteem will try to bring others down to their level, while someone with a healthy self esteem will HATE the thought of someone else feeling the way they currently feel and will try to elevate others.... which is the only REAL medicine for feeling bad about yourself, and pays off.
5) Along with #4, there are things, situations, what have you, that you can only understand if you've experienced it. And people will normally not take your word for it on THESE situations because they SEEM like a gamble. However these situations have "circle" type remedies: You feel bad about yourself, so you try to help someone else, rather than wallow. This leads to a sense of making a difference, which boosts YOUR feeling of self worth, which leads to a higher self esteem, which leads to more contribution. Love works the same way. So does helping/taking care of others.

It's just a house

I am sure so many of you are sick of hearing about this house. But I cannot tell you how this house just FITS us. It's like I came up with a plan for how I wanted my life to go, and this house just fits that spot in the puzzle. But it's a LONG shot! First of all, we don't have the BEST credit. Then there's the price. And add to that the fact that someone is going to be leasing it as of June 1st unless we can, in the next 29 days, get approved for the loan.

But my faith in God, and the things I have experienced tell me that it's possible that with HIS blessing, and help, the impossible isn't impossible.

I do know that it will bless not only our lives, but I see a lot of good that I can do with the location and space this house would provide.

One thing I want to look into is My Mom moving in with us. David and I have talked about this, and think it would actually work in a house like this. It has a segment of the basement that would give her the space she needs to still live independently and interact with us when she wanted. It has 2 kitchens, one right off of a bedroom, and "playroom" (that doesn't HAVE to be a playroom) so if she wanted to cook her own food and eat downstairs while she watched tv, she could. There is a separate entrance in that same segment of the house with NO stairs. Which means she can come and go without even having to see us, and she wouldn't have to deal with her knees bothering her going up and down the stairs. The ONLY thing she would have to go anywhere to use is the bathroom. The one in the basement is down the hall by the Kids rooms, but when she showers in the morning, they'll be asleep. And at the ages they're at, they don't even really need to use that bathroom.

Anyway, that's just ONE thing that this house would provide. There's also the fact that Elizabeth just CAN'T share a room. We've struggled with this since Elysia was a baby. And Jacob needs his own room too. Elysia and Abby could prolly share a room until they're ready to move out, but that still means we really need a min of 4 bedrooms. Then there's the fact that I really WANT two more pregnancies. So that's a min of one more bedroom.

So the original 4, +1, + My Mom leaves us ONE bedroom in this house. And that's really not much extra space. So it's not like we want this enormous house when we only NEED half the space. Especially when you add me homeschooling.

Then considering that I won't have the Playgroup here if we move. I want to be able to do something like it. The space of this house + the yard would let me be able to have something like that and be able to invite people over.

And I've already said that I LOVE having people over. I would host EVERY holiday if I could. And in this house, I COULD.

Again, this house is just PERFECT.