Hold your Judgement

I LOVE to eat. But I HATE meal time.

I compartmentalize. I'm systematic.  I'm EXTREMELY left brained.

Meal time is a NIGHTMARE for me.

Even the simplest meal ( a piece of cold pizza) is a production for me.  Because it has to be organized, compartmentalized, and systematic. (If you're thinking how crazy I am for turning meal time into drama, read up on ASD here)

It's WAY too chaotic for me.

"Autism spectrum disorders affect three different areas of a Person's life:

• Social interaction
• Communication -- both verbal and non verbal
• Behaviors and interests

Each person with an ASD will have his or her own pattern of autism.

Sometimes, a child's development is delayed from birth. Some children seem to develop normally before they suddenly lose social or language skills. Others show normal development until they have enough language to demonstrate unusual thoughts and preoccupations.

In some children, a loss of language is the major impairment. In others, unusual behaviors (like spending hours lining up toys) seem to to be the dominant factors."

I have had ENOUGH of everyone saying things like "Well, you can dress yourself and manage children so you are fine, just stubborn"

I don't have to fit YOUR definition of handicapped to have a mental discrepancy.

Anyhow, Meal time is a huge trigger for me. And it always has been.  I just pushed through and clenched inside.

That is another reason people struggle with this diagnosis of mine.  Because I get through it. Albeit haltingly. They DO notice I'm inept at handling it "normally"  But it's only enough for them to criticize, not enough to think I may have a REAL excuse.

If someone else would just handle meal time for me, I could probably deal with just about everything else.

But then again, there is that other quirk:  I HAVE to have the dishes lined up precisely, and just the right distance from the edge of the counter. Thereby making letting others handle it almost JUST as stressful ;-)

I'm fine the way I am

I don't know what it is about me that gives people the idea that they need to change me.

I don't know what it is about me that gives people the idea that i need an education from them.  They'r normally less educated than I am.

It's NOT how I speak. Because I truly believe that most of the time when I DO speak, I come across as powerful.  Maybe that's the issue.  I LOOK dumb, and like an easy target.  Then I open my mouth, and people get a fight they NEVER counted on.

The second I took the people out of my life who were trying to change me, and realized exactly what I'm really like.... how my brain works, and WHY I struggle with or do certain things the way I do, my life fell into place.

Those people who have felt it is there job to change me, have lied to me thinking (or not caring) that I can't figure it out, or who stir up problems show the ultimate insult! They don't have the decency to assume that I have at LEAST an average intelligence level.

We are dealing with a lice outbreak in our home right now.  And it's clearing up relatively fast.  And it's pretty contained.  Not all of us have lice despite sharing EVERYTHING.

And it's because I don't do things like "Normal People".  Our house is compartmentalized. Some areas have had NO infestation at all, and others have been left alone for more than enough time for the issue to resolve itself.  Because I AM systematic.

And it's just come naturally.  Because I'm FINE the way I am.

For what I'm dealing with, I manage VERY well.  And I naturally fix and avoid things that I'd be right in the muddle of if I didn't work the way I do.

God Bless the USA

when you hate on me

this is a picture of the "virtuous YW Leader" Mormon who came at me yesterday for not being a "good Mormon " since I support the Duggars and make fun of Utah "where our prophet lives and speaks from the Temple"

Thanks to a Dear MI Friend who has tracked her down,  I can rest easy

This conversation B L O W S my mind!

Sara James High: This post is disgusting this show should not be on air and josh should be in jail and Ana should be ashamed of herself she knew and still married him and had kids with him disgusting I hope cps gets involved to protect those kids!!!!!

Suellen Lulu Spooner: In our country, we even believe in giving prisoners a second chance. You must not be a Christian.

Sara James High: I am a Mormon which are strict Christians he molested five girls that is way more then a second Chance you must be an idiot


Candace Rose: Sara, please don't broadcast that you're "Mormon". You'll give us a bad name. Tomorrow in sunday school, listen a little better to what Christ taught please and thank you!


Sara James High: Candace Rose if you support a sexual abuser YOU PLEASE dont broadcast you're a Mormon if you support josh perhaps you should call your ward missionaries and have them set up a meeting with your bishop ASAP and seek help immediately


Candace Rose: Oh, and Sara, you're only a"Christian" if you believe in the Atonement of Jesus Christ. On the cross, he forgave ALL he encountered. He preached love. Not hate. You must live in Utah. Those "Mormons" primarily only know self love. That's not what Christ taught when he said "Of you it is required to forgive ALL men." And "The second (commandment) is like unto it: Love thy neighbor thyself."

Sara James High: Our church has discussed this case and we are all appalled and saddened


Sara James High: Haha I live in Oklahoma from California

I understand but in this case punishment is required and needed for such actions and we should be showing our love for the victims and showing our disappointment and disgust with josh


Candace Rose: "As I haved loved you, love one another. This new commandment, LOVE ONE ANOTHER. By this, shall men know: Ye are my Disciples. If ye have love.... One to another"


Sara James High: And if you're Mormon you would never mock Utah that is where our churches home base is that i is where our president and prophet speaks to all of us from the temple

A true Mormon would NEVER mock Utah.

Sara James High:
Quoting the bible and book of Mormon is not a valid argument it shows youre delusional

Five children were sexually violated IDC who you are this should not be okay with anyone regardless of race gender religion ...See More


Sara James High: I hope you truly seek help Candace Rose I am done with this conversation I have a lesson to prepare for my young women and it will be on this topic and learning what their rights are etc maybe you should truly speak with your bishop


Candace Rose: I'm delusional for quoting scripture?


Candace Rose: And no, abuse is NEVER ok. But neither is hate.


Candace Rose: I don't need to call the missionaries. Here in "church headquarters" we can call the Bishop ourselves

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This woman then stated that she didn't know of any bishop that give their # out

THEN she downloaded a picture of my family and posted it with a comment like "These look like people you might want to protect"

There's a reason I like Moose..

I have more on common with them than eveN a Bear

I'm a purist

It's so obvious. I'm a purist. THROUGH AND THROUGH. I can't handle deciet. Because it dirties. I have no filter because it clouds.  But that means I have no shields either.  Want a revelation?  God knew no one else would protect me.  And I CANNOT protect myself.  So he gave me the lineage Of a warrior. And extra cushion (a small amount of trials) and the protection of his angels.

If you think I'm crazy,  hold on because I just became eccentric.  But those with ears to hear and REAL faith will at least know it's the truth I speak.

Wait for it.  Wait for what?  Answer: Watch me shine.

Dogs and children

One of my BIGGEST peeves ever are people who don't parent their children or dogs.

If you want to argue that your pets are you children,  have at it.  But then you can't let them roam free pooping freely. My kids cat do that.

I'm the "mean" parent in the neighborhood because I not only require MY kids to behave responsibly, but I won't hesitate to tell other people's costco to knock it off when they're being little turds.

Home

If this doesn't fit my life, I don't know what does.

And it's ironic because I think in movie quotes. (Rain Man at your service )

And MANY of the things that Oh says in this FABULOUS movie fit EXACTLY how I would phrase (and do) things.

This is the kind of movie I could watch EVERY day!  

Shine

See us shining, everywhere, Every color, Every kind 

              At the dawning of a brighter day, Hope will lead the way and See us shine 

Chipping away at priesthood authority

I just read This article about chipping away at the foundation of the faith of the members of the LDS church.

This article PERFECTLY addresses the issue! 

3 Girls

I had to go talk to Elizabeth's teacher again today about a boy in her class that has relentlessly bullied her a good part of the year, if not the whole year.

And in my head, I was plotting getting him alone, off school property and giving him a good swift kick to make a LASTING impression. (NO. I'm not going to.) And then I started going through in my head the likely hood that I could actually get away with it.

And I realized that because Elizabeth is a girl, I probably could on some level get away with it.

And I realized how fortunate I am that I'm going through this with a 12 year old GIRL vs a 12 year old BOY.

I can protect her so much better than I could a boy.  As messed up as our society has become, society as a whole still looks at girls as off limits as far as bullying goes from boys.  I have a much better case in my favor if I were to go after this boy for hurting my DAUGHTER than I would if he hurt my son.  Sucks in the case of a boy.  But gives me an edge with my girls.

I must have done SOMETHING right in the preexistence.  I truly have proof that I am very well cared for by my Father.( I'm not saying this to gloat.  But why call an egg a stone just to save feelings. ) I really honestly have been blessed with the EXACT right balance in life.

I believe that is part of why my girls came first. All of this bullying will be more manageable (yes, I get girls can be relentless when they bully.  But THAT, I can fight girl to girl) with the Girls first.  And then, if it happens to Jacob, I'll have some experience First.

Plus, he'll have his 3 big sisters to help.

No one will TOUCH Bella ;-)

For Mothers

The world changed,
When I opened my eyes.
On that magical day,
When I traveled the skies.
The Angels were cheering,
As they waved goodbye!
My heart beating fast,
As I looked into your eyes.
First time seeing you,
Seeing that smile on your face.
Reassuring me of your joy,
With your loving gaze.
I will miss heaven,
My friends from up above!
I'm excited, for my new home,
That is Filled with Love.
God placed me there,
To learn & to grow.
To feel your love,
And never let go.
Life will seem tough,
I may lose my way!
He promised me,
To listen to what you say.
Your mommy will lead you through,
Life as you grow.
She'll never give up on you,
You'll feel her love as it flows.
Her heart is big,
It has a place just for you.
A place where only you can fit in,
Because she'll love you too.
She'll hold you, and kiss you,
When you hurt inside.
She'll even protect you,
From the outside.
When you get big,
And you see your mommy cry.
Tell her you love her,
And tell her why.
Mommy's have big hearts,
They need love too.
They give all for you,
In all that they do.
Hold her & kiss her,
When she hurts from inside
She needs protection,
From the outside.
Love your mommy,
Each and everyday,
For she Loves you so.
Honor her, in every way!
God placed you in her arms,
To hold & Love, forever

~Debi Henshaw Galloway~

Dedicated to my beautiful Mother, whom I love so much! Happy Mothers day Mama! This is your poem!