Gratitude and Frustration

I think those are the topics I write about consitently. However, I have spent quite a bit of time typing up Blogs, just to find out the next day that they didn't post. Grrr.Anyhow, I am very blessed in my life. And at the same time constantly frustrated. Sooo....One thing I am very happy about is that tomorrow, a Chapter in my Life comes to an end. A MUCH needed end. To every decision, there are consequences. I have always tried to face the consequences to my choices like a Big Girl. And I try to learn from the unpleasant ones, so that I can more consistently make choices that come with the consequences I like vs ones I have to swallow like it or not. I don't think that I often make choices without being realitively informed and therefore have no one to blame when the consequence, though exactly what I was expecting, doesn't fit to my liking. In such a situation, I made a well informed choice, and have paid the price. And now, I can put it behind me. I have been blessed to be well guided and informed for the most part these past years. I have sometimes had the choice "nudged" out of my hands, and have been spared some consequences because of it. And on the other hand, I have always been informed properly so that when I do make a choice, I do not make it blindly. I HAVE however, on occasion blinded MYSELF despite proper information and guidance. But it is still very much a blessing to be so well educated.Sometimes I will even sit down and type up a whole entry. Post it, and go on my way. And I do not consider it accidental when the next day it is not there. I know that I am watched out for. I believe STRONGLY in a Diety who cares personally for me and looks out for my well being. Sometimes, though I don't realize it at the time, some things just aren't meant to be said a loud.