9 Months

9 months can seem like a lifetime, and I find that to be highly interesting.

9 months ago, I had a 5, 3, and 19 month old. I was in the final stages of a divorce. I was planning a future that is night and day to the future on my agenda now.

9 months ago, I was 170 lbs. And losing.

9 months ago, I had more things on my plate in the Legal department, than I would ever care to remember.

9 months ago, I wasn't worried about a car, I didn't have one I was satisfied with... but I had a truck, so I didn't care.

9 months ago, having another Baby was a flicker of a thought. Something I expected.... some time, maybe in a couple of years.

9 months ago, I was brousing engagement rings. Wedding ring, shopping, and planning for a September wedding.

9 months ago, I was part of a Family. Not completely, but my foot was in the door. And I loved them very much. The thought of being there was something I was really looking forward to. And they had already shown me so much care and acceptance. I miss that Family... But I have MINE in one piece.

9 months ago, I couldn't even consider coexisting with My Girls Father. Living 2 blocks away from him was WAY too close.

9 months ago, I was a Dreamer.

Well, I'm still a Dreamer, but my dreams have a very similar, but very different purpose.My Girls are happier than I expected them to be 9 months ago. My Bishop commented that 9 months ago, he could have NEVER predicted this outcome. Non of us could have.But here it is. I am re-married , livng in the same place , VERY pregnant , and have 2 "new" cars.... but no truck . ( I have a van though, and that's the next best thing.... and prolly something I would have needed even WITH the truck. ) I don't even have to THINK "Legal System"....And I am certainly NOT 170 and losing anymore.

I have a LOT of love in my life. 9 months happier. 9 months closer to eternity. 9 months more peaceful. 9 months and a Different Person.