True Fear

I realized something driving home from Salt Lake at 8 pm last night: I never knew True Fear until I became a Mother. I worried, but what did I have to lose? How much was really on the line? (Temporally anyway) But now, I have 4 other Souls, People, Angels, pick a word on the line. I was not a HUGE risk taker, but I was gutsy, daring, etc. I drove crazy just because I could, and I was prolly certain that I was invincible. I mean what was the worst that could happen if I got in a car accident. Yes, I could be severely injured... maybe even killed. But I really didn't think about that much. Chances were we weren't going to be talking life or death. But NOW.....

I have never been so cautious, so willing to go the extra mile for an added measure of security.