Obviously this does not apply to SOME people ;-) But it does to me. My crazy is a defense. It's my "I did it the way I was "expected to" and hated the results. So, now I do it MY way and even if I don't get any better of results, at least I don't feel like I gave up myself for nothing." defense. I figure that if I can't win, I might as well do it the way that leaves me feeling like I didn't just get screwed out of EVERYTHING!
I didn't used to be that way. But it's like Laura once said I am OCD, but not clinically. I can CHOOSE to be or not. And if I'm used to getting screwed by a person or situation, I am extra OCD around them.
David has days where he really works with my crazy, and I try to make sure he's rewarded. And when people WORK with my crazy rather than try to change me, I relax and don't need the crazy anymore.
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